I used to be able, and like, using computers for work and writing but nowadays I require something simple that “just works”, like the IPad. I get very frustrated if there is a simple glitch.

Sad as I am, I used to love playing computer games on a desktop computer. Mainly God games, such as Civilisation and, very sad, shooting games. Shooting games are now totally out as I have not got the speed or eyesight anymore. Luckily, I can still play Civilisation on the IPad, which I do. Most iPad games are “free”, but require you to spend money to get on.

I like my games to have a story, not too far fetched!, but IPad games have weird controls and the screen is, obviously, too small. However, I am trying out “steam link” which allows you to play your games from your PC, via steam, the only problem is sussing out controls.

I know that the time before I enter the latter stages is limited, in that it is a maximum of ten years. I don’t dwell on it consciously, but I do know it affects my behaviour subconsciously.

Firstly, I can either live life calmly on a plateau with a few foggy days, or I can live my life to the full in my own way with high days, but with the consequence of more foggy days. Even with the first option, I think I would vegetate thus lowering my quality of life. Obviously, I have grabbed the second option with both hands! When I have foggy days I never climb all the way back to former heights.

Secondly, I know that I come over strident and impatient, hopefully never rude; that is never meant. This is because I don’t want to waste any precious time.

What I think has to happen is that I accept that I can’t achieve all I want to, hard that is to accept.